The Times I’ve Left
The first time that I left her
it was not by choice.
I had to leave.
There was a war. I had no voice.
The first time that I left her
I just bit my tongue.
I did not know what I was doing.
I was very young.
The first time that I left her
I was scared.
I was a boy.
I was naïve.
I didn’t care.
The first time that I left her
wasn’t fair.
The second time I left her
it was understood.
We knew it wasn’t permanent,
though it was good.
The second time I left her
I prepared her first.
We were both in different places.
We were blessed and cursed.
The second time I left her
I think made it worse.
It filled me with a yearning;
with a sort of thirst.
The second time I left her
really hurt.
The last time that I left her
I was forced again.
Didn’t want to leave, believe me,
fate forced my hand.
The last time that I left her
the depression hit.
I would cry about it
and still wouldn’t mention it.
The last time that I left her
dug a hole in me.
It’s like this wicked curse
has all of this control on me.
But the last time that I left,
I left her soul in me.
All the times I’ve left her,
I left wanting more.
And every time I’ve returned
to an open door.
I’ll never really leave her,
she’s inside of me.
The more I know her,
the more she instills pride in me.
The journey has been bittersweet.
The journey made me Me.
Without my Nicaragua,
I don’t know who I’d be.
About the Creator
Pedro el Poeta
Pedro el Poeta is an award-winning Hip-Hop/Spoken Word/Freestyle artist, an activist, a proud father of two, a teacher, and an Eckerd College graduate with a B.A. in Creative Writing.
For more, please visit: pedrothepoet.com
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