The Pregnancy Test

It turns pink, it stays pink

I turn white

kind of green

like a queasy sea-sick colour

the colour of uncertainty

laced with dread

pink seems like a

two-fingers up in your face

kind of colour

like garish balloons at a funeral

even though this is

meant to be a beginning

maybe they should make

two different tests

one for those who want it

and one for those who don't

and for the latter

turn the pink to black

it turns pink, and it stays pink

and some things never stay the same

for something has begun

and something can never go back

and I am lost at sea

and I feel sick

but that's nothing

compared to what you must feel baby