How else am I supposed to feel
How else am I supposed to be
Can I really appreaciate the people who left me in the cold
At least in my heart and mentally
All I needed was a hug sometimes
All I needed was some love
Because family has to do more than just provide a roof over your head
What about the bonding
What happened to teaching etiqutte
I don't want to bring shame
And yet I have in vain with the mention of a name
In truth I'd rather be an orphan
I'd rather never know how many times I was abandoned
Especially when all I ever wanted to do was help
So why couldn't they just tell me
Why was I never allowed to have any fun
Why couldn't anyone see a young little girl who really just needed some love
Sure I suppose giving me money and stealing it was the best kind of love
Punching, choking, and slapping was better than talking and saying what the problem really was
I can't seem to get over this feeling with a kid of my own
I've never been able to perform under pressure
I guess that's why now I can't get any love
Maybe the truth is that I just wasn't tough enough
When really I just wanted to stay out of trouble
I was told to mind my business and so that's what I did
Apparently today it makes me a narcissist
For focusing on myself instead of assuming and making stuff up
Digging deep into my brain now
I think I need an exorcist
Maybe even a hypnotist
I don’t want to remember the pain anymore
I don’t want to keep going through this
I want my child to have a better fate
I just don’t feel strong enough to teach him through it
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