When I met you
I knew we were different.
I didn't know the differences we held
would be so stark.
I was a lover of all things.
A tree hugger.
A hippie.
A happy, harmonious human.
You
were just mean.
And manipulative.
And even though I saw it,
the fixer in me took you on as my next big project.
A project as big as a sinkhole.
And no matter how much of myself I gave,
I could never fill you up.
Playfulness was not an option for you.
You thrived on madness,
being miserable,
manic,
Melancholy
You refused to be happy,
while I refused to hang it up.
So I continued to chip away
at your isolated,
intoxicated,
impatient,
impaired insecurities
and you
continued to take full advantage of my giving nature.
Sucking the positivity out of me
like a vampire sucking life out of the last virgin
so he can gain immortality.
I could set my watch by your vicious cycle.
I always knew
when you were grasping at the last strands of your life-saving rope,
the last strands of peace,
the last strands of me
and no matter what my logical mind said,
I always opened the door and refused to refuse you
despite what was best for me
I let you lay with me,
and I stroked your head and your ego
while you fleetingly rambled
about disgust,
disappointment,
deceit,
Death.
I massaged your doubts away
until you fell asleep,
proclaiming your love for me
through drunken lips,
only for you to wake up
restored,
renewed,
replenished
and remiss,
while I had to lock the door behind you,
heavy,
hurting
and heartsick for us both.
I don't know how many times
I will unlock that deadbolt for you.
Maybe until my wrists are beaten,
busted,
broken
and bruised.
Or maybe,
just maybe, last night was the last night.
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