The Mask
The lies of the mask are not true… “Stay Hidden” “Don’t Say Anything” “You Can’t Trust Them” “They Don’t Care” “No One Asked” “They Don’t Need To Know” “They Wouldn’t Understand” “No One Cares” “No One’s There For Me” “I’m All Alone” They’re just lies… right?
The mask
I didn't realize I had it on
I had to take it off, had to turn the fakin' off
And now- My real face is facing secrecy's fatal flaw
The reality of me drowning in an ocean of my own debris
There's a body at the bottom of this sea
The king of hide and seek-
Brought to his end by the fear he was swimming in
This is me
Hypocrisy is clear in the mirror that I'm starin' in
Just another victim of comparison
Just where has insecurity taken me?
Embarrassment's ache- I can't shake it off
And now- Annoyance with self-disgust is takin' off
My real eyes have realized the realest lie
A walking oxymoron balanced on the thinnest line
The difference between confidence and diffidence
Tell me- What's in the place of honesty's absence?
I'm asking for myself
I haven't been transparent and it's so apparent now
That the lack of self-acceptance leads this loop that I'm in living in
The broken record that I listen to keeps me trapped in the curse of Déjà Vu
This mask on mask off, here we go again with the on again off again
When apathy's on the rise the walls rise up again
Now I'm masked up again
Fake eyes look for crimes for me to be a witness in
Who's business am I in now?
I can't mind my own if I'm out of my own mind
My sin is fully grown now
Death is on his way now
I'll die in these walls if I don't find a way out
The stress is swellin' up I need to let it out
So forgive me as I vent through this poetry I care about
Rather rhyme than cry but am I oversharin' now?
This honesty with my mental whereabouts
The smoke has cleared now, resentment fills my minds atmosphere
The hatred smellin' foul I need to air it out
There's somethin' like a vein in what I write about
If it's all in vain then it's the bane of my existence that I'm writing out
The walls are coming down again, I'm coming out of hiding now
I was dying in my comfort zone
Also known as the dead zone, from which I was castin' stones
All of which came back to me
Can't hide my hand now, I call it karma's courtesy
Can I brag about what's hurtin' me?
Can I ask how you picture me?
Would it be different if you saw the worst of me?
Do broken crayons color different?
Mask on, mask off, who can tell the difference?
If my poker face is on at all times
Mask on, mask off, this is not the first offense
Resentments still present and without a limit to repentance
But the last time I took it off I said it'd be the last time I'd have it on
But here I am masked up again
The king of hide and seek is sitting on his throne again
What's in this place is what he's sown, this what he has to reap
Sitting in an empty palace cause he couldn't make the ends meet
What's behind the mask?
The real meaning of everything he's ever written
Thoughts pacing back and forth between what can't be read
What behind the mask?
A different world - without a limit on its minutes
His real face- again facing what dread exists within it
About the Creator
Josh Morgan
I began writing as a means of expressing creativity, relieving stress, and venting emotions. I mention my daily battle with mental health a lot, I hope it is relatable and inspiring to readers, as writing is something I'm passionate about.
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Comments (2)
Loved this! Excellent read!
This is beautifully written. Well done.