The Gauntlet
Fear is on my side
I'm right where I started again
Wallowing in self doubt and throwing pity parties for myself
The finish line never felt so far away
I'm in last place and this is a race I'm not prepared for
I remember trying to banish these thoughts before they ever start
I just decided to simply try my best and hope for a miracle
I remember writing poetry on my arms and covering up the scars
The past has a way of continuing to control me
Where are the blessings I crave so dearly?
Why am I stricken with discord so abundantly?
Discouraged time and time again
I know the way to overcome is to just to go straight through
I wish I could just fast forward to the future where I'm content and grateful
I'm no longer waiting on the universe to create a happy ending
I'm motivated enough and stubborn enough to trudge through the trenches
I'm not where I want to be but I'm further along than where I used to be
My plans gave way to alternative routes and scenic detours
Assuming the worst will happen will never have a choke hold on me again
Projecting false prophecies and beliefs is a hobby I don't have time for
The future is waiting on me to arrive and I will greet it with a smile
The ending is only what we make of it
The beginning is the most difficult step especially when we fall off time and time again
About the Creator
Anna Torres
I’m a 37-year old mother. I love reading, metal music, and writing. I have begun writing again since 2021
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