The Deep End

As a cold sweat awakens us in the wee hours of the night, we ask ourselves, “Have I done enough? Have I gotten where I want to be? Have I lived my life to the fullest?” On pops a light and the sobering uneasy feeling sprints into our body like a predator homing in on its prey. When this moment hits us, it is different for us all but yet we all have the same revelations. The “I wish I went here” and “I should’ve done that” creeps up at us ever so silently to take its strike. Now we are thrown into a panic where we cannot be satisfied by our mundane life to which we have slept through thus far. Walking through life like a zombie in a deserted wasteland full of billboards of people parading around actually living a life you think can only happen to anyone but you. The resolution that is ever so rampant is to have some huge expenditure that we knowingly cannot afford just to feel some semblance of the life we wish we could attain and that we feel is out of our grasp. The only problem is this temporary happiness is like eating a rice cake, sweet for a moment but you are left completely unsatisfied. There are 2 possible paths now. We can continue to live our mundane boring life where we feel like we are just on autopilot for everything and never truly take the chance to live our life. The less traveled path is to fight this worrisome issue that plagues most of us all and that is to dive in headfirst and put things at risk so that it makes you squirm and cringe in an uncomfortable panic. Live your life finally. Live it to the fullest and do exactly what you have always dreamt to do. Without this struggle and discomfort trying to live life in a new way, our dream continues to be just something that occurs when we go to sleep at night instead of being the reality in which we hope and pray it to be. The greatest advice one can receive in this scenario when you are unsure what to do is to scare yourself and dive headfirst into the deep end. Sink or swim scenarios can make or break an individual, but if we have never truly lived before, are we really even risking anything?