i bought a house
i looked at it beforehand
researched it
spent time thinking
and know that it fits perfectly
ive planted flowers and made a garden
ive painted walls and fixed the plumbing
ive fixed the windows and cooked many meals
ive made memories in this house
every day i come home to comfort
safety and solace
i love the house
that i care for and it cares for me
but
there is another house
that is bigger and sturdier
with a more luscious garden
and a thicker roof
that ive passed by every day
for years
ive known about this house
and
how it perfectly fits
and sometimes i wonder
if i bought the new house too fast
if i should have waited
or
what it would be like to live
in that other house
what kind of memories
i could have made
if i never bought the first house
what kind of flowers i wouldve planted
what kind of garden
and what color walls
what kind of food
how many memories
sometimes i pass that house and wonder
how much i could have loved that house
from the inside and out
but
knowing that i never can
so
i take different routes
to avoid the house ive never bought
to completely ignore
its memories that never have been
because
sometimes i want my house now
to have a bigger garden
and a thicker roof
but
every so often ill pass by
to spark those thoughts again
to try to peek in the windows
and contrive nonexistent stories
and unprecedented memories
but
the windows have become broken
the weeds overgrown
the roof decaying
the walls falling
so
ive stopped thinking
about the thick smell of meals
or the outcome of a garden
inside that house
knowing that i couldve been the one
to live those memories
because
i bought my own house
and i love my house
that i care for and it cares for me
About the Creator
Nicole Keefe
Part time artist, writer, and hobbiest who isn't afraid to learn and step out of comfort zones.
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some things are just meant to be.