The Beginning
This work was created in 2017. This is the true beginning to my journey within. I decided to just write my thoughts as they came to mind. No changing them to make myself feel good. I was only interested in the acceptance of the truth I had within. This was my first liberating moment. My first step towards truth.
I cant think, my minds blank
They don’t believe I can do it
I believe that I cant
I want success, but fear failure
I die from 9-5 but without it I feel left behind by society
I feel as if I’m in a gun fight shooting blanks
Within there’s been a munity and my sanity is walking the plank
I on instagram like “Chase ya dreams!”
But I’m steady retreatin’
Fear grips my heart so achievements must exist in a different reality
Failure in my blood because success and I share no love
I tired to fuck this world without a glove and it burned me
Now I’m coming from a dark place
Societal success is the hook, fear is the fish and I am the worm
Told its free to fly but no ne warned me of the crash and burn
Stress is killin me, physically
Anxiety has molested my mind
Killing me mentally
Feeling worthless in my soul
All that’s left is to be diagnosed clinically
A seed planted in cement hoping, whishing that I’ll grow
Always coming up with the dopest ideas
Yet, I don’t have shit to show
New story, same ending
Stress got me holding my breath to fall asleep
Anything to get a moment of peace
Momentary genius is all it lasts me
I cant catch a break
Looking forward to the ending
That 6 foot trip
I just want relief
At this point anything helps, so just keep hitting that concentrate with the heat
See, I gave fear the power
It promised if I followed, it would lead to societal acceptance
Now I’m standing here wide open
Call the firing squad and tell them not to stop until the guns are smoking
Positivity was my mask and I wore it proudly
Delusion of grandeur
Steady hoping for a miracle, like things will magically get better
They say you can make it through the storm
I honestly don’t even know the weather
Don’t pity me because I have no fucks to give
I’m sorry to those I’ve motivated
Life’s a game I don’t know how to play
This isn’t a cry for help
No, I’m not suicidal
This is an unorganized realization in words
For now I will drift
No direction
All I know is there is a destination
…..
Damn, it is a really beautiful day "👁”
About the Creator
3EBM
I’ve found so much truth in this journey that I want to share it with all willing to listen. Especially during these times. Some of my publishing’s may upset you or uplift you. Just know, I love you. Remember Humanity first.
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