My battles have turned to a raging war
And yet I sleep and slumber even more
Piles of work, by me, yet to be done
And my neighbours can hear me at 3am when I snore
I said "I want to change" 100 times but never did
I prayed and wished and backslid
I listen to advice, forgetting my ear is a tunnel
End to end, nothing stored
Even my childhood dreams have become blurred
My childhood nightmares born
Distant from family, like a distant relative
I could pick up the phone and call, but I won't
Relative
You see I am the author of my problems
I wear my selfhate and overthoughts like an emblem
I blame myself a little too much but shouldn't it be?
I drove into this and now I feel lost at sea
Relationship with everyone close to me is like a leftover food
Turning sour and it seems like I am mending broken glasses with glue
Where are you? WHERE ARE YOU?
This sea is too deep and I sink and float to only sink again
Stuck at the devil's bridge of this painting
In love with inner pain and self hostility
Where is change and how can I find her ?
Is she alive or dead? do I have to run after her?
Where is healing and why doesn't she respond to texts?
Where is self-love and why isn't she here yet?
Where is God and why doesn't he...?
I just can't take it anymore inside
I should have reached out more but I guess I am at fault
But if this sea swallows me with its growing roar
I hope my family and friends know I fought till my last breath
I hope I don't get to meet her soon...her, death.
About the Creator
Harydo Neon
I drain my thoughts through my pen. That's the only way I breathe.
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