Abandon me.
Throw me away and stop caring.
Endless cycle of halfhearted feelings
deepens the barren wasteland
inside my chest.
♡
Love is a dream; something
I cannot attain being myself
nor playing the part others orchestrate.
Simple, safe, warm. Those are what
I desired from the abstract emotion.
Was it too much? Not enough?
Do I deserve such a feeling?
♡
Tired, drained. Feelings that seem
ingrained into my being... When
was the last time this weight rested
anywhere but me? Smile though,
others' problems outweigh your own.
Like a clown, paint on the expression
and put on the show. That is what's expected.
♡
Constantly at the end of the line,
propelling others forward, and yet
no one thinks to grab this hand
outstretched. A desperate plea
masked as an encouraging push.
Eyes avert and ears tune out because
I will always hold second place, to anyone
and to everyone. Myself especially.
♡
Love will find me when I am able
to place myself first and finally believe
that I deserve love, unconditional
without having to prove my worth.
That is my wish, although
it feels like a pipe dream.
About the Creator
A. Nguyen
A writer at heart who wants to share my works. I want to evoke emotion in people when they read my writing but I won't ever know if I can, if I don't put anything out into the world so this is my first step :)
Her Majesty Mia and her minions
I rule this rag tag lot… they’re not much, but they’re all I’ve got! I preside at the head of the table, my indisputable, rightful place. But, I randomly perch on other chairs at a moment’s notice… whenever the mood strikes. Such fun keeping them off balance. Fun reminding them who’s boss... ME!
By Angie the Archivist 📚🪶4 days ago in Petlife
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