Stream of Consciousness
What if i don't wake up?
What if i don't wake up? Im feeling a little dizzy and decided to lay on bed yo sleep but as i close my eyes my mind runs wild, What if i don't wake up tomorrow? Here i said a little prayer asking for more days on this world. I have set a 6am alarm to start my day early, if i don't wake up i wonder how long is the alarm gonna ring?. I have promised my friend to go out with her tomorrow. I wonder how would she find out i didn't wake up and how would she react to it. Sad? Heartbroken? Possibly yes i know she'll be Heartbroken. I just talked to my mom and didn't say I LOVE HER my mind is rushing should I call her an tell her how much i love and appreciate her? No. I will stress her and she may not have a peaceful night but if i don't wake up how will she know all the greatness i want to tell her?. Can this mind of mine shut off already so i can sleep. But, if I don't wake up I'll never know what could've been of my life. That is sad. I wonder what will each person i know remember me with?will they remember My laugh? My smile? My voice? My presence, will my absence be felt? Something fun we did together? . Mostly I wonder what if i don't wake up tomorrow will they notice my absence at all? If i do. I'm gonna love them. I'm gonna show my love to them. And I'm gonna LIVE LIFE.
By Lindokuhle Mgwenya2 years ago in Poets


