Suffocation

feel like the world is closing in on me .

bein as though im not how i used to be.

the determination in me not letting me let up .

but i swear i feel like giving up.

i admire my strength .

could still walk up straight w a limp.

i ain't never been a quitter .

i achieve everything i goal.

or do i ? cuz my mental health has been hard to mold.

I suppress so much, I honestly feel it's a lot more

a domino effect , but now it's time to up the score .

for many, im happy . smiling. lit .

but for me , im the only one who can see through my shit.

i can look in my eyes & say "bitch you not okay"

but to the world , straight faced , neck up , & ima be straight .

maybe i need help .

depression ain't nun to play with , neither is bipolarness .

one minute im up, next minute im down

next minute i feel like I'm the only one around .

Cuz i get lost in my thoughts .

Duplicate my negative emotions.

my road is clear destruction is where im goin.

if i don't get this shit under control, its a wrap for me

but fr , it is under control , but getting help jus isn't happening .

i wanna break down & shout . throw sumn , punch sumn cuz i can't handle this drought.

no money is killing me .

Being broke is a terrible feeling

But wats worst is my mind , body & soul needs healing.

i just wanna be able to say im okay & be okay.

i wanna be able to look in my eyes & embrace ,

the beautiful , Strong, determined woman i am

without my alterego taking my place .