Depression
Speaking from the Mind, Body, and Heart
when i get depressed ..
i get in this mood ..
to not speak , to not laugh , to not eat food.
& honestly, @ times it's hard for me to move .
Cuz I feel overwhelmed with hurt .
With tears. With pain .
it seems as if i have nothing to lose but it's so much more to gain.
I wanna get better ... Truly .. I do.
But talking to a person who only here for the moment is sumn I won't do
Cuz why pour out to a stranger ?
One who just thinks they know me since they went to college .
They degree is their justification of knowledge ,
So they think they got me all figured out.
But the amount of shit i feel on a daily , would put anyone in a drought .
My depression is stemming from my abandonment issues .
I just wanna get all this shit out my head .
every day is a new day where something makes me dread ,
everything. eating , Talking, being around.
my heart is in my body , but it's sinking to the ground .
im bound to the pain of emotions .
i wish it was sumn to stop this shit. Maybe a potion .
Cuz my feels are in constant motion.
Up . Down . It's never fails that every day i crack a million fake smiles .
looking like a clown when everyone is gathered together .
bc i can never seem weak enough to not ride out this stormy weather .
Dark clouds don't last forever.....
Right ? ...
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