Stuck

I’m stuck

somewhere between here and there.

Where I am and where I want to be.

She’s trying I know she is, this change, this thing I’ve put on her.

Its unfair of me to ask this of her, giving me guilt by asking anyway.

Also she feels guilt, denying it to me.

And so we’re stuck.

If I could only get to this place, this place of my desires

without causing her pain........

But the pain is inevitable.

This hurricane I’ve brewed up, tossing it against our shores.

Will we survive this storm, our love stronger than the tide?

Or will the winds destroy, render us completely,

our relationship unsalvageable.

For now though I’m stuck.

Trying to see a way forward.

Knowing I can no longer deny myself.