I’m so tired of screaming
Why do I pretend to be okay
When in fact the world is caving around me
Everything feels F’d up
I’m tired of feeling like I’m drowning
Like I’ll never be able to catch my breathe
Like I’ve died just a little more each day
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My world is collapsing
I’m shaking, barely able to stand on my own two feet
Petrified to take one more step forward as the world crumbles
It feels like there’s nothing here for me
It feels like I’ve got nothing to live for
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Darkness and pain sit on my soul
I’m praying just to be released
My heart is so ready to let go
I’m so tired of feeling
Of knowing this hurt and pain
Of knowing that there might not be an ending
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This world has been so cruel
Would you hear me if I was screaming right next to you?
Would you even acknowledge the pain you’ve caused?
Why do I pretend to be okay?
When I’m curled up in a ball
Trying to hide away in the dark corner of the room.
Trying to remember how to breathe
When all I have is this darkness suffocating my spirit.
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Are you happy?
To have embraced this power over me.
Are you glad that I hurt so much?
Are you happy to see the pain on my face?
Can you feel the darkness?
Can you see that you removed the light and started embracing the darkness?
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Overpowering
Towering over me while I cower in the corner
I can’t escape
I can’t catch my breathe
I’m trying to hold on
I’m trying to remember that I’m strong enough to live through you
About the Creator
Alisha Wilkins
I've been writing my whole life. Writing about realms to escape in, forbidden characters to fall in love with, and using writing as my muse and refuge. Sometimes writing opens up the soul to healing, learning, and eventually to living again
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Comments (2)
This was so poignant and emotional. I hope you're okay 🥺 Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
Brilliant.