Stress from the Busy Life
The concrete jungle isn't that humble
i’m extremely stressed, to be honest
constantly putting on a face every time dat’ i step out of the house
some days these masks i wear around become misplaced
i spend many of my days by myself
no friend, no lover, no pet
just i, Khali
accompanying me is this notebook and pen
i find myself sleeping alone every night
on pillows that are flatter than the
floor itself, i find that the wood is more
comfortable than my own mattress
i wake up and something is on my mind
someone is on my mind, but i have to be patient until
that person can come around
don’t know why, but i feel lost out here
feels like my efforts in this business
are going unnoticed, making all these moves for show it seems
people don’t understand what you have to put in to get something
out of this, all they do is assume and gawk at you
once your breakthrough comes around
mindlessly getting up to go to work
and school, taking orders that i really don’t want to take from anyone
however, i have to play devil’s advocate
so i can get to where i gotta get to
my workload catches up to me, believe it or not
i’m extremely stressed, to be honest
does anyone even ask how i’m doing any more
i doubt anyone cares bro
none of my old classmates from middle school
reach out to me, they haven’t done so since 2014
they’re all watching savage writer come to prominence,
so i assume they’re waiting to see if i fall or not
i see why they don’t like my posts at all on Facebook
keep on watching though
because i’ll die before i’ll fall
does anyone ever want to be around me for me?
are you around me because of my status,
don’t worry about my finances you greedy bastards
i talk about what people need from me too much, to the point that it’s now a cliché
enough of it, we ain’t got time for that foolishness today
i’m extremely stressed, to be honest
pressure becomes force
i force myself to make efforts even when i don’t want to
because i’m lacking that much enthusiasm
the drive is there, don’t get me wrong
however, my delivery is starting to fall flat
same crap i been writing as a teenager
becomes recurring themes in every poem that i put out
why even call myself a poet, to be honest
i ain’t talking about much
burnout is impending, i just don’t know when it’ll unfold
i’m extremely stressed, to be honest
lowkey…
i’m ready to give up
About the Creator
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