I Am Insecure About My Life's Work
Believe it or not, believe it
i am insecure about my life’s work
i look at what i’ve crafted, in my eyes
i don’t think it’s sufficient enough for me to put out
i don’t have enough sophisticated language,
oh my god i cussed too much here,
i wrote about too much violence
i spoke too much truth, you know draculas
don’t like it whenever i do that
did i overuse a certain phrase?
what did my poetry coach tell me about using commonplace phrases
hold up, give me a second
i need to look at that again
certain things i’ve written from way back when
that i don’t like opening up because it makes me cringe,
to myself i’m thinking why did i write that in the first place
i feel like every poem dat’ i’ve penned is terrible,
people want me to spoil the plots of my books like
some milk that sat in the refrigerator
maybe i should tell them what
happens because once they buy my book,
they’re just going to shelve it after turning the first page
i am insecure about my life’s work
i don’t think it’s fame that i actually want,
sitting under this microscope that the public eye stares into petrifies me
never having privacy, can’t go into a bodega or a Walmart because you’re acclaimed
intruders justify their intrusions
because you’re acclaimed people try to come
at you however way they want, thinking that
there are no consequences because you’re acclaimed
your financial life is newsworthy, Khali
your romantic life is newsworthy, Khali
your follower count is newsworthy, Khali
your feelings of wretchedness are newsworthy, Khali
heh, i bet IT IS
why can’t we talk about it in our next article
how about you piss off first
that’s none of your business,
don’t say shit about me fool
now write about that
i’m just a man who enjoys telling stories,
i don’t like being pedestaled by people so don’t do that please
i am insecure about my life’s work
i have autism, but that doesn’t mean i like talking about it
i struggle with depression, but that doesn’t mean i like talking about it
i was brought up in a shambled household,
but does that mean i like talking about it
no, to be honest
too many treacherous memories to begin with,
i ain’t going back to that
no way, no how
sorry
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