Stop

I feel like I'm going crazy.

I'm stuck in this emotional hurricane of sadness.

Im empty inside.

Everything is cold.

I don't know how I got here,

I feel like a stranger in my own skin.

I don't recognize myself anymore.

What is this thing inside me?

I feel like I'm always in auto pilot,

never in control of my thoughts or feelings.

Some days I wish I never wake up,

so that I can finally have some peace.

I want the noise in my head to stop.

I want the chaos in my heart to stop.

I want the clock to stop ticking.

I want the world to stop turning.

I just want it all to stop..

This isn't me.

I try and I try to find my way back, but theres so muh darkness I can't see the way.

What if I never get better?

Then what?

I can't lose anymore sleep because I can't find any quiet.

It's been two days, two days since I've slept this time and I feel fucked up.

I don't know what's going on.

What fucking day is it?

I just want to stop.