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Eating disorder struggle

By Rene PetersPublished about a month ago 1 min read
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash

I chug water so something is in me

I have pleasure from the pain of a mostly empty stomach

At first the pain was just that... pain

It was me punishing myself

But now I enjoy that feeling

I control when I have it... my only form of control

I wait until I get dizzy and eat the smallest amount I can

Then I wait for it to happen again

I don't know if I can get out of this cycle

I starve myself for control... for pleasure.

Mental Healthsad poetryFree Verse

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Rene Peters

I write what I know, usually in the form of poetry. I tend to lean towards mental health, epilepsy, and loss/grieving.

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Comments (5)

  • Dharrsheena Raja Segarranabout a month ago

    This was so relatable because I love doing this to myself too

  • ROCK about a month ago

    I struggled with anorexia and body image in my teens. No one noticed. We can fool do many. I over exercised. It's a fries chore. Control is my culprit.

  • Babs Iversonabout a month ago

    Sending virtual hugs!!!❤️❤️💕

  • Kendall Defoe about a month ago

    Food is sometimes the most dangerous drug/tool/weapon out there...

  • Sid Aaron Hirjiabout a month ago

    I hear you in that. It’s hard to realize it is actually a form of self harm. I struggle to get myself to eat often so I batch cook. I can feel the pain in this poem. Well done

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