I look at you looking at her Smiling, Talking, having a great day.
I look at you looking at her, only im kinda far away, where I can’t hear what
I've been sitting alone for awhile now trying to give you space.
It was mostly because I couldn't stand to see the sad look on your face.
Some of that was my fault and I’m sorry.
I’m sorry I let you down,
I’m sorry I spilled my thoughts and feelings to you when I weak and alone.
I look around and think that I have sinned this horrible sin and I need to atone
When in reality all I did was be me.
But it wasn't the best version I could be.
I walked around and never put my head down because I was myself,
Not bottling up my emotions and hiding them away on a shelf.
I thought I was better than that,
I thought I was stronger than that.
Sadly, her words words have messed me up
And to be honest I though the hurt they brought would never stop
But now I see that just one mistake can’t and won’t define me!
Because I am stronger than that,
And I am better than that.
I look at you looking at her...
Then suddenly, you look at me.
I find the courage to look you in the eyes and mouth my apology
I’m sorry I let you down
I’m sorry I spilled my thoughts and feelings to you when I was weak
I’m sorry for my one mistake that might never go away but now im different
I’m that better version of me
That will never change.