Some Days

Thats the guy I love,

he comes out time to time

In moments like this,

when he surpises me with a kiss

Usually its me,

the one that tries

Some times

Some nights

He is that guy

I begin to dream

I begin to feel

Just to be disappointed, to know that guy is not real

I debate against the alcohol or weed that he consumes

If it's me that he wants or if I am just filling a place in his room

He texts her he misses her

He thinks that I'm dumb

I'll never be her,

I know thats she's won

I have no idea why I stay

Maybe its the thought

That when I am in bed with him

I know that shes not

It wasn't real I thought, my feelings for him

They were temptation and lies

I didn't have a clue

I got to know you and I fell

for someone that will never be ready

that I could tell.