Solace
The Journey is What Matters
One choice amidst twilight
brought the artist’s book to fruition.
A collection, demanding departure,
from the usual mold.
//
Paintings grace the pages: a representation of how messy, yet
beautiful, reclaiming your life can be.
Words fill the cream-colored spaces.
//
I turn pages avidly, feverish in my discovery that
I am not alone. My search for
truth. Proof,
to bolster my faith in one’s ability to rise above.
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The paintings – still wet with drying – represent an ancient story built
upon ten thousand times ten thousand converging paths,
all unique. I am transfixed by this assemblage of beginnings:
A homey portrait of solitude sets the scene with prominent, emotional
depth. Then
a grayness creeps in: a step back to see in full, cultivating
a stillness. One moment of reflection played back in the mixed mediums.
//
I nearly smudge the paint with the force of that connection. An,
awakening, foreshadowed by delightful swatches of lightness,
like starbursts reflected in a tear-drop. I
was led here; We, were led here.
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I know what the next truncated canvas will hold: lily pads
displaying a sudden hyper clarity; bringing the stillness inside. Hope
mixed with fear, I place the palm of my hand directly over my heart.
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Rhythm of cycles remembered, I am transported back
to my childhood home. Mind at ease, knowledge irrefutable,
those perennial paths rise in my memory.
A quiet space to be, me.
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My life began on a farm. Most of it is still there: blood, sweat, tears
meld with freedom of imagination, blending like a slurry with the soil,
the rock, the bark. This is where I remember
who I am meant to be. But,
this is new; I am tired.
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Focusing on the next page, I see stark colors made complete in blurry
pastels, their depth rising to an obtuse angle. Fear.
Black,
disjointed
darkness. An internal struggle between acceptance and
Belief.
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When I left home, I sheathed acceptance. Like a wilting flower
I tucked it between the pages of a book. Though uncertainty abounded,
my enthusiasm did not falter.
The spirit of the land walked with me.
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So, desperate to get away, I experienced, explored, became
bitter. Overwhelmed by history and reality, I became
a shadow of my true depth: my helium soul
stuffed tight.
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Maybe this wasn’t meant to be my story.
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I am pulled in by the painted darkness: a digging up
of the buried things. Only healing brings
overriding joy.
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Displaying a balance of beauty in darkness and darkness
in beauty, each painting becomes
a window I am invited to climb into and walk
another’s journey. Exaggerated sponges denote a
shape,
a color,
a feel,
where at the end, all the broken pieces merge.
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I recognize the journey, because the journey is mine. The things I refuse to
surrender. In this –
I, the writer,
she, the painter – we move together in time: heart, mind, land, balance,
harmony.
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Then – bold strokes for discovery. A focus forgotten in childhood,
bolstered by the intuition of the female heart. Liberty,
with soul peeking out.
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Maybe, I had it right all along,
because suddenly I can read
these paintings
like I wrote
this poem,
in pieces,
that became the whole.
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I thought the beautiful ending would get me,
but it was Solace all along.
About the Creator
Jennifer Lorraine - Bloch McGee
*Imagination is the plaything of fairies. Without imagination we are doomed*
My heart and soul goes into my writing. If I don't bleed a little, I haven't done it right.
Comments (4)
I really enjoyed how you expressed yourself and told the story
Outstanding ✨❤️
This was really beautiful. I had to read it through a couple of times.
Beautiful 😍