Sleeping Brain

As I wake each morning, unwilling to start the day.

I always say "JUST STAY IN BED. WHY BE AWAKE?"

NEVER TRULY AWAKENED and ALERT.

BRAIN STAYS IN PERPETUAL SLEEP-STATE!

Discontentment for reality--- Know in myself, NO SHRED of Normality.

I do not fit in. I do not follow orders.

I can not seem to learn how to work alongside others.

I know the concept, ideally I respect it.

I just can't seem to "APPLY IT " To ANY EFFORT I may make!

No ideas come to mind, that I find the SATISFACTORY road to take.

DISCOVERY OF THIS ELUSIVE, EVIDENTIAL PRIZE TO GAIN ,

BY EFFORTS MADE.

-WON

-AND DONE

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What will awaken me? Spark the path to destiny.

What dream in me... Which I can not see, waits to be.

Made into reality? Why can't I reach the place inside me,

Find the seed that begs to be planted?

I seek to silence dramatic rantings repeated.

ENOUGH BE ENOUGH!

SHOUT. "SHUT UP!"

Wish I'd just be DONE! STOP GIVING A F*** !!

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WHY WORRY? WHY CARE?

BRAIN IS STILL TOO BUSY SLEEPING.

STUCK. STRAINING TO BECOME AWARE!

OH JUST SLEEP THEN! NEVER MIND YOUR

SUBTLE STIRRINGS OF CONSCIOUSNESS -

"PRETENDING" , TO CRAVE BECOMING "AWARE"

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Wheels spinning yet again , smoking rubber in the mud.

STUCK -Exhausting energy. PRETENDING TO WANT TO,

GET MOVING FOREWARD- SOMEWHERE.

STUCK IDLING IN PARK! Crying ,pleading for a big, strong push...

from the "DEVINE" hands of an external force, I'll not likely encounter.

Wheels Spinning FAST ... Going NOWHERE ... Still?



**ALWAYS**



My Sleeping Brain