Sister's I am Sorry.

I am not sure what to say.

Or put into words,

But I am Sorry, and I Love you all.

I was not myself.

I felt helpless.

But I was walking around numb inside.

I was trying to hide.

I at least didn’t want to lose my Pride.

But I am sorry.

I love you all.

I was wrong when I yelled when I acted out.

I just didn’t know how to describe it and let it out.

But I am sorry, and I love you all.

I was walking with blinders on.

Like a horse, I only saw what was in front of me.

and the emotions were coming...

They were coming on so strong.

I only focused on the negativity, my flaws, and I was focused on the negativity.

I was starting to become lost.

But then you called me : Alisha and Rida and encouraged me to get help.

I was angry with you but like true sisters you could see the truth.

I couldn’t hide anymore.

But I am sorry, and I love you all.

I had your all of your help.

All along but didn’t want to seem weak when I usually strong.

I will take accountability for what I have done.

Because I am Sorry, and I love you.

I hope one day you’ll all forgive me.

There were things that I did and said.

The memories and fragments haunt me still I am sorry I was in my head…

I don’t really remember all that was said it still is a haze.

That shame I MUST carry.

I hope with love and prayer I can bury.

I won’t ever forget all your help and all the tears shed that we all shed.