September
Thoughts on Suicide Prevention Month
September washes over me
like a riptide —
pulling me down,
dragging me out
into a vast sea of sorrows,
far away from
the safety of shore.
—
It is a month of loss.
The days grow shorter
as they lose light
by the minute.
The anniversary
of a national tragedy
is preceded by
the anniversaries of two,
more personal, losses.
A cousin. An uncle.
Their deaths, their suicides,
still harrow my heart.
—
As I remember them,
grief turns my mind
to memories of friends
who also died by suicide.
I weep for them
with a faint glimmer
of understanding.
—
I have spent nights
smothering my sobs
with my pillow,
feeling as if
the only way
my heart could
cease hurting was
if it stopped beating,
and begging God
to make it stop.
—
It is only
because of God
working in my life,
through Bible study,
friends, family, therapists,
medications and prayer
that I'm still here.
About the Creator
D'Shan Berry
I love words. I love art. I love Jesus.
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