RED CLAY AND SUNKISSED BROWN SKIN
Story of a Jewish Native American Girl
I was born
surrounded by
white desert sands;
my skin is a dark contrast
with its red clay and sun-kissed brown color.
My father wrapped me in a soft fur lined papoose
and gave me a purple amethyst to keep me safe, then disappeared.
I relocated to
black asphalt streets
and graffiti-covered back alleys.
My mother wrapped me in a white
fringed tallit that was given to me by my new family;
fair European skin contrasted by my red clay and sun-kissed brown color.
I had become a
Jewish Native American girl
and my new life was a contrast to my
red clay and sun-kissed brown skin roots.
I wrapped myself in a rust striped Navajo blanket
and cried as I held my tallit in my hands unsure of who I was.
I struggled with my identity.
As an adolescent, I felt like I had no home.
I would sit and wrap my arms around myself and try
to feel less like the intruder I portrayed in our family photos
with my striking contrast of red clay and sun-kissed brown skin.
I spent my
young adult years traveling from
white sand beaches to emerald green forests.
Searching for my identity through life's natural beauty.
I collected memories like paint store color swatches along the way
using them to create the palette I would call my life and who I had become.
Now I am older and
a mother with my own family.
My children’s skin is a blend of their parents
and they find comfort in wrapping themselves
in my Navajo blanket and blue and white fringed tallit
while using my palette to help them create their own picture of life.
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