Prisoner's Pain

I live in a prison of my pain

The walls I laid with my own hands

They become strong and resilient over time

Where I dwell within its isolation

Prisms of my tears dangle from above

Reminding me of all the pain I have not overcome

The walls are splashed with shame, grief, and doubt

As its all this prison knows and is about

Shackled up in my emotions I remain

A new layer of restraints is added

As a new trigger, experience,

Or story repeated from my past replays

I become lost among my creation

A maze I built to not evade

When it all becomes too much

And I realize I need to plan my escape

I get lost along the way

Stuck in an endless loop on replay

Being tricked that I cannot be free

For my eyes do not know what they see

This is another trick too

An illusion of the mind

For I am the prisoner

And the prison

I am the guard with the locks

But also the only one with the key

It is not until I can make my peace

With the prisoner within me

That I can then be free

To let others see

The pain I have yet to release

Without one another who would we be

Each day my shackles begin to loosen

As I feel my sense of faith renewing

I pray on my knees

For grace to enter me