Present

my now may not be my later

but that’s where i’m at amid the moment

so i must talk about the present first

i’m feeling pretty comfortable

although i have days when i’m depressed

i’m paranoid

devoid of all hope

i don’t want to talk to anyone

let alone look them in the eyes

Asperger's kicks my behind

but i know there will be

days where i won’t be

depressed or not as paranoid

hope will make itself known and

i will want to talk to others and look at them

Asperger's will stand at bay for once

that’s why i continue on this journey

do you know how many people

that tried to discourage me

it’s okay

i’m still here and i ain’t going nowhere

keep doing it

it’s only going to further me with my pursuits

thank you

i forgive those i’ve had beef with

i wanna let go of whatever tension we had

it’s the only way that i can be at comfort

holding onto grudges weighs you down

you’ll start to feel the effects of it in your chest

so there you go

i wish you well, be safe in the world

nothing but claps and cheers over here

learn from whatever errors you’ve made

i believe in you

my now may not be my later

but that’s where i’m at

amid this moment

so i must talk about the present first

i think about the future more than i do

the current moment

i wanna have high hopes for it

yet at the same time

i wanna enjoy the present

i can’t go backwards anymore

too late for that now

so i have to stay in the now

to see my later