it bothers me how
so many years later
i still freeze whenever i cross your path.
i know i should not care
and i feel like i never do
but my body and minds betray me.
i can't help myself but hoping
you see me
and see how well i am
here and now
and that you regret letting me go.
it's not even because i still hope for something,
because i am over you and i have been for many years,
and because you've been the worst thing that happened to me,
really,
but i hope that you are not doing better
that you haven't grown
that you haven't change
because how much a better person can you have becomed
when you still look the same,
dress the same,
talk the same,
drive the same car,
hang out with the same people...
How much of the same you,
that had known me,
and supposedly loved me,
and hurt me,
remains?
i think i don't want you to change and move on,
cause i still feel like you don't deserve it.
You don't deserve to call what broke me a mistake
don't deserve to blame humanity
for all the shitty memories you left for me
of something that was supposed to be beautiful and memorable
in a good way.
don't deserve to look all grown up and happy
and fulfilled
when my stomach still turns when i see you,
when i still freeze and can't unnoticed your presence in the room,
when i still feel like i got to prove myself to you.
I hate having those feelings and thoughts at your sight
cause it means you still hold power somehow over me
and i
will never make the same mistake twice
and I've been the one
and the only one
having power over myself
ever since you.
About the Creator
Strange & Poetic
Fixation on the beauty of what’s being felt. Feeling ( through/because of/is the reason of): art.
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