I don’t know what’s wrong
With me today.
My heart is anxious,
Heavy in my chest.
I have the urge to flee
As if my system is in the fight or flight mode.
I don’t understand why
It’s so hard to calm my mind
So hard to calm my thoughts.
I don’t want to stay in this place
I don’t want to die
I want to escape
I need to get out of this dark place.
I feel stressed,
Angered,
Saddened.
I’m like a mental roller coaster
That’s about to derail
And fly off the tracks.
I don’t understand why everything is a challenge,
Why everything is a struggle.
I don’t know how to live by myself
I don’t know how to be alone
And be okay.
I thought I’d have the fairytale love
I thought I’d be happy
And yet,
Here I sit.
Pouring my heart out to you,
Which is okay.
At least you give me an outlet
A resource to let it all out on the line
Air out the conflicts on my heart.
But when will it be my turn.
Will this struggle ever turn into something better
A situation
A scenario to be proud of?
When?
About the Creator
Alisha Wilkins
I've been writing my whole life. Writing about realms to escape in, forbidden characters to fall in love with, and using writing as my muse and refuge. Sometimes writing opens up the soul to healing, learning, and eventually to living again
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Wow, these words are so similar to the way I have felt in the past.