My mind
It cycles rapidly
Apathy invading every crevice
So nothingness is standing in the way of happiness
And it's this very sentiment
This scary sentiment
That I fear if I shared
They'd all laugh at me
So I bask in the emptiness
Adamant every eve
I pray for some feelings to slither in like a basilisk
They say your depression
Is a momentary sadness that'll pass
But it won't
And it doesn't matter
That this metaphorical hand
Is wrapped around your neck
And you're gasping
But nothing drastic has happened
So it must all be imagined
It's too hard to justify why one moment you're laughing
And the next moment your crashing
No drive
So to fake it you drown yourself in gin
And when that gets low gas it
Dramatic
They whisper
Back at it they mumble
But they don't really want answers
I know
We just can't put together words like
Sharp
Beautiful
A delight
Fantastic
Charismatic
Oh by the way a touch of crushing sadness
I swear it's fucking madness
But they call us crazy
Maybe we're just not clear
"Maybe they're just not here"
I overhear in conversations
The same people who promised they'd always be around
And I feel the anxiety creeping back up
Setting me on edge
No wonder why my circle constantly feels like it's degrading
I've been around squares
Leaving me feeling wrecked n tangled
But it makes sense that the four corners of my brain
Keep me trapped inside
And I bet
There are people who think I'm talking about triangles
Look I feel buried alive
And sometimes
I feel like I'm surrounded by people holding shovels
Watching me struggle
So suicide ain't a thing
you prepared me to die
And you can save your comments
I know the common responses
It's funny the only response is responsibility
Until they find you unresponsive
Then their response is "it should've been me"
Sanity is not something I envy
Hollow triangles
Empty pyramids
But this isn't about you
This is for all of my imperfect circles
A bunch of screams inside Pandora's box
About the Creator
Sweet Nothings
Alias Duece Lee Vizzini III
Now, Sweet Nothings, my blog is a sanctuary for love notes and human emotion. Each post is a step toward telling my own intricate, beautifully imperfect story.
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