Painted Smile

Gazing at my reflection I don’t know me at all

Who is this staring back this makeshift empty doll

My eyes seem empty void of life as if its drained away

Trapped in this bond , bound by vows forcing me to stay

All I knew has been forgotten lost or passed on

Alone I curl within the shadows until the break of dawn

Invisible chains link me to this morbid way of life

I do as I am commanded with heart filled with strife

Light from smiles of my born push me every day

Ensuring they never get placed within the fray

With a smile, I push on hiding the eternal fear

I cry within the shower so they will never hear

With a breath I clear my mind and paint a smile on

Falsified happiness to hide just how far gone

Beer in hand food is served life is as it should be

Nobody will ever know that I’m not happy