Overthinking: The Need To Know

Thinking to myself- What am I doing?

If it's true that thoughts determine direction then where am I going?

Too often questions arise about all I'm pursuing

Overthinking does nothing but prevent any growing

Overwhelmed by the years that have gone by me

Thinking somethings wrong with me

Too often fears consume my mind but I can't let them control me

Sometimes I can't help but overthink

The line between objective and subjective can be confusing

And what about the methods I'm using?

Talking to myself- Where's this conversation going?

Between when the doors are opened or closed-

What's the difference with me?

Who am I supposed to be?

On one coin there's two sides- Pride and insecurity

Which one will I be choosing?

I'm fighting myself so how am I the one losing?

Too many times I can't help but overthink

As I write to myself I can only hope to find the answers to all I've been asking

I know in every place where problems exist, that so does opportunity

But sometimes I can't help but overthink

How can I possess all the love in the world but run out when it comes to me

And have the time for everyone and everything but nothing left for me

This is where my thoughts brought me

I've been thinking too much

Some things need to change

Thinking to myself- What am I consuming?

What lies have I believed that lead me here

What feelings are feeding the war inside of me?

Overthinking again

Here I am toeing the line between knowledge and belief

A line thinner than the ice I'm skating on

Just inches above the abyss that is the misconception that ignorance is bliss

But I'll lose my mind if I overthink one more time

I guess it's a lose-lose

So at the time I lose my grip on my sanity what will come of me?

Overthinking is my reflection- The need to answer every question

To know everything- but at a cost

One notion too many will bring all belief to cease

What treasures lay within the layers of my mind will be forever lost

Only one piece will remain- Of what used to be a place of peace

Now a scene of anxiety- I couldn't help but overthink