Overcoming Failure

I haven't been in a very creative mood this week

I'm not entirely sure why

This week has been way less stressful

I should of been writing a like machine

But I wrote nothing until now

Whenever I'm not writing I feel a bit let down

Like I'm failing as a writer

Which obviously I know isn't true

Yet those feelings remain, punishing and shaming me like a wicked grad school teacher

It's so strange when I can't write

It's almost like my mind completely goes blank

Everything I've learned or written vanishes from my thoughts

I can hardly read a few sentences from the book I've been reading through for weeks

Ugh

Why does this happen to me

I wish there were a way to turn my creative side on and off like flipping a light switch

Until that happens I guess I'll just have to be patient and wait

Wait for the muse to finally return and spread her glorious wings upon me

Failure isn't completely defeat

Instead failure is more a lesson of sorts

This moment of terror did give a good idea for when I feel less creative

I'll try, reading the first chapter of a favorite book

I feel like doing that will help me get started again

And create something fresh and new before I return to my uncompleted manuscripts I've been working on for decades