over the rainbow

gazing up on starry nights, caught wondering if you are looking down on me or upon me...

I know I only find disappointment within me to find someone other than God to blame for taking you away sooner than I was ready.

that night your eyes said "tomorrow will start without me, and I will get to sleep in." how you expected me to carry on, I will never understand.

The universe tells me thats just how it goes, life happens. You're over the rainbow and I'm stuck here living in black and white wondering when I'll get there too.

moments come and go, memories become more distant... Thinking about you at times feels more like gasping for air; I look for you in the birds and the bees but sometimes, sometimes it's hard to see.

Some pain you simply can never get rid of; never lighten the load, only learn how to take it off your shoulders, tuck it into our hearts and hope that it is easier to carry.

gripping tight to memories of you, hoping they never dissipate, deflection before detection helps keep the reality away.

I know you're there, in the trees and the breeze but I simply wish for you to be here, to be close to me.