Our not so love, love story

how it started:

what can i say? it was love at first sight

i was young and noticed him at the club one night

i bumped into him to get his attention

however i did it on purpose, which i forgot to mention

that is crazy you would probably think?

but either way he offered to buy me a drink

i guess when you know, you just know

at the end of the night he told me he had to go

i gave him my number, told him i will be waiting for my phone to start calling

the next day i waited and just knew i was already falling

by midday it started to ring

he straight up told me he was after more than a quick fling

now i have finally found the perfect man for me

to my heart, he holds the key

hundreds of frogs i have kissed

not realising that princes do exist

how it was going:

as he is standing at my door

i am forced to apologise once more

from my eyes the tears pour

my mistakes, he keeps score

his actions raises alarms

but i find comfort in his arms

my heart is painted with scars

our relationship is darkness with no stars

so here we both stay

too weak to ever walk away

it is hard work with no play

wondering what sins i am in debt to pay?

i am scared to be alone

his body feels like home

the only “love” i have ever known

i would never survive on my own

how it ends:

he has slowly stopped coming around

already a new bed he has found

again and again he puts me last

he still keeps in touch with his “past”

my feelings for him are too strong

keeping my distance feels so wrong

out of sight, out of mind

again he has left me behind

i begged him to stay

but that just pushed him further away

so here i am with the same outcome

feeling sad and numb

i set myself up for disaster

heartbreak? i am the master

waving bye to the ship which sailed

another relation i have failed