Opaque Magic
If the point of life is to find true happiness, is this fake?
They say life is all about the little magical moments,
but I haven't felt a magical moment in what seems like years.
I fell in love once,
but my heart was quickly broken.
I've made many friends,
but they've all left
or proven they never knew me at all.
I missed my senior prom
And spent the night alone on the sofa,
A pint of ice cream in hand and my eyes glued to the television set.
I ignore texts from people who want to talk with me
and delete emails offering once-in-a-lifetime opportunities.
I want to live like this,
relishing in the relaxation
and not giving a damn about going out on the weekends.
But I miss the days when I felt.
The Friday night football games where the lit field felt so beautiful and unreal.
The adventures with my friends when I felt like we would keep in touch forever.
The nights when I couldn't fall asleep because I was so thrilled to be able to live and see the next day.
Even when it hurt,
it was something.
Even when I was falling apart
from a broken heart
or shattered trust,
I felt alive.
It was addictive.
If I could,
I'd shove an IV in my arm,
and the bag attached would be bursting with those feelings.
I don't want to live
going through the motions.
I don't want to live
bored and jaded.
I want
excitement,
adventure,
love.
But I'm tired.
How can you live a life,
let alone a life worth living,
when just existing day after day takes all you have?
About the Creator
Charleigh Justice
Hello! My name is Charleigh, and I am a freelance writer taking a gap year before studying creative writing and theatre in college. I love writing and constructing sentences from nothing, and I hope you enjoy the ones I've made for you!
Comments (1)
I think the feeling is well presented with this form. It's a clear image of sadness that many have felt at one point or another in life. My one point of critique is just a recommendation of trying some different forms. Stanza patterns can be as unique and artistic as the words. I'm sure there's some great stuff you could do with a vignette poem or a classic AABA- Ballad form! It's a emotional, raw poem, good through and through.