One Hit To The Ass

One hit to the Ass, and I was in Heaven

He whipped me again & then came the Adrenaline

And I loved it more than anything, I just have to confess

“Safe word” he asked? No please “don’t do it any less”

One more hit, and I fell to the floor

Why did I enjoy this painful galore

No matter how much I had, I always wanted more

There was something fundamentally wrong, wrong to my core

But in this moment I didn’t care

All I wanted was My Share

Whip me harder I told him so

I knew I had hit another low

But I promise I wasn’t like this in real life

It’s was only here and there; sometimes

No matter how much I tried to fight

I ended up in this scene every Saturday night

I first saw this act in 50 shades

I thought it was in my head, it would fade

But I found myself attracted more and more

Googling whips, bondage and all things hardcore

So I found a place to give it a go

I wanted it to be secret, not make it into a show

So I asked this guy to keep it hush

And do it slow, please don’t rush

The first time we did it, it felt a little weird

But after that, I left behind all my fear

He told me it was all fun & leisure

But I wanted to experience the pain with the pleasure

It continued on for months and months

Picking up pace, and getting more rough

We had a safe word when I had had enough

But it wasn’t a big issue it was all just fun

I used to enjoy the normal things until I discovered this

I knew I had found something I didn’t want to miss

I can’t really say why I wanted it so much

I just knew that I was tired of the gentle touch

I wanted to experience something more than the norm

I was a childhood rebel, never could conform

Oh how I enjoyed this darkness, even though it came with so much shame

But truth be told, my whole life I had experienced pleasure only with pain.