I sit across the table from my accomplice
in the chamber of the mental holding office
our hands churched into our laps. We are not permitted
to contact. The air between us thick as Perspex.
They let me know every one of the manners in which this spot looks like a jail.
•
Everything a clean white
so perfect it could nearly sanitize
a memory.
•
In 1787,
Jeremy Bentham considered what might turn into
the most well-known jail plan:
the panopticon.
Expected to control detainees through the deception
that they are generally under reconnaissance.
•
My accomplice tells their advisor
they fear taking
their own life,
that they adjusted on a structure's edge,
& three officials escort them from the room.
•
The very first cop who cuffed me
[was my father]
left me bound
till my fingers blued.
On the days when I can't recollect
his face,
he turns into the aroma of
vodka and zip ties
the sound of
sleeves and a jug
petaling into edges.
•
At the booking office they eliminate my glasses
& the watchmen obscure into a parade
of fathers.
•
I bring my accomplice garments and cushions
at the point when the emergency clinic chooses to hold them longer,
push each shirt that could stamp them
as eccentric back inside the storage room and shut it [like a mouth].
•
The word faggot scribbles across
the prison watchman's lips like spray painting.
•
At the point when I visit my accomplice
they demand remaining inside
the sky above
the porch cordoned
off with chicken wire.
•
I argue my sentence down
in return for: my face, my prints, my DNA
& a decade probation.
At the point when I see a cop, I dread
indeed, even my breath
criminal
& at the point when my advisor asks me
in the event that I'm self-destructive
I lie.
Maybe
both are a sort
of reconnaissance.
•
Nerve gas floods the road,
hones water to an edge
secret in the circle of my eye.
& very much like this, a crew vehicle
changes my trouble a weapon.
In the event that my accomplice snaps sleeves
around my wrists
[& I requested this]
have they likewise weaponized
my craving?
•
A lady in the office
tells my accomplice:
I understand what you are.
Says:
Delinquent.
Says:
Hostile to christ.
My accomplice spurs her on,
chatters in bogus
tongues and is bound
to their space for security.
•
Once, a cop hauled me
into a rear entryway and
beat me like he knew
precisely what I was.
What does it say if here and there
at the point when I request that my accomplice hit me
I anticipate his clench hand
fixed in their throat, his voice
swelling their tongue?
•
I'm captured and put
[in the men's jail]
in isolation.
They let me know this is defensive
authority. That they couldn't manage
the claim assuming I were killed. Along these lines,
they let me know I'm a lady
just when I'm no more
relaxing.
•
The beginning of the word jail
is the Latin prehendere — to take.
It follows, then,
that to bring your life is to jail
the body underneath soil.
•
[All things considered,
A self destruction is a criminal act].
•
Adjusted on a structure's edge, I envision
some change of this second
where to come up short at death
would be a break
of my probation.
•
We both sob interestingly
upon discharge
at the point when we see the sky.
Light blue
cut through
with a solitary helix
of razor wire and lined
in clean white.
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