Numb

Right now

There's a void in my head

I have no thoughts

Yet my head is somehow racing

No sleep at night

I'll wait till morning

When the sun rises I can finally sleep

Suddenly there's a rush

A feeling that I've felt a few times now

I instantly turn numb

And nothing else matters in that moment

Except breathing

During it all

I don't care

If I'm paralyzed

If I have what I need

If I'll ever be with you

I don't care

If I'm loved

If I die alone

If I'll ever come back

If I'm going to feel this way forever