No right way to grieve

I wanted to believe I was ok, but that from truth was very far away. I felt I deserved to stay in this pain, not realizing this was the wrong mind frame. I needed freedom to handle this anguish in my own way, instead of running astray. Once I escaped the ridicule of others telling me how to grieve I finally got some relief. I now could feel my pain and healing begin to gain. My journey hasn't been an easy one, and without the one above my life would be done. Over time my life has become easier to handle, and I no longer treat life like a gamble.