Nightmares

Revisit your last nightmare. What do you think your subconscious was trying to tell you? Rupi Kaur’s Gratitude Writing Prompts

Years ago, I had quit sugar and flour. I had what I considered a nightmare when I dreamt about 12 banana splits sitting in front of me at Bridgemans in my town. I woke up thinking I had broken my abstinence.

What I did was call my sponsor and ask her what I should do. She said to not worry about it. According to her that was really normal and happens to people when they are going through withdrawal.

She said, “I tell people to double their efforts for a while. meaning to add another meeting or two. Then read more literature and talk to your sponsor more often.”

One thing about me is that I almost never remember a nightmare or really any dream. I know everyone has dreams, but mine are not available most of the time to me.

As a child, I remember having awful, scary nightmares. I don’t remember what they were, just that they happened. I decided to not remember them. That happened. When I asked for help to get them back, I was given a couple of things to do and when I did those things, I still didn’t have dreams back.

I am okay without nightmares; however, I would like to have dreams. And I am an adult woman and should be able to handle an occasional nightmare.

Nighttime can be a scary time

Insight into why is not a crime

Getting dreams back is good

How can I do this or should

This be left alone, or no?

My time with this has been so

Awful that who cares if it doesn’t come back.

Right? Well, I did that’s who!

Especially since it was a hard one to do.

Say, I still want to and it makes me blue!

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First published by Mercury Press