Never Met

Sometimes I wish I had never met you

Because when you’re not here

I think of you

I fear

There was nothing ever there

Between us

Something beyond lust

I may never know

Will either of us

Show our inner thoughts

We’ve been taught to hide them away

Perhaps

On a better day

I tested the boundaries

As far as I felt I could push

Without pushing you away

Or making you uncomfortable that day

I hear everything you say

And want to respond anyway

But I can’t

Because we’re locked in freedom's cage

All I feel is rage

Because I want to tell you all

But must heed duty’s call

Or let it all fall down

Is it even worth it?

When everything is burning

To suppress my yearning

To feel you close once again

Just one more time

Just to know my desires were reflected

And not outright rejected

Which is more painful?

To have fallen

Knowing there could have been more

Or to know

You were never in my reach

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