Narcissistic

So, it’s come down to this.

I never thought you’d be the reason,

I’d learn to hate myself.

I’m the reason…

I’m the cause…

Because nothing is ever your fault!

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Let’s take a seat

Let’s have this conversation

About how I’m the psychopath

About how I’m the one who needs fixing

About how you’re never to blame

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Words elude me

As I sit and listen to your toxic energy

Anger boils inside of me

As you spew this hate

But I’m the one who needs help

I’m the one who’s on too many meds

I’m the one who’s the alcoholic

I’m the one who needs to get better

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Fuck you!

I don’t have to take this pain anymore

I don’t have to listen to you

I don’t need you

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Sure,

Maybe I need some help

But not from you

Maybe I need my therapist

At least I won’t need you

My world

My life

Can finally revolve around me

And that’s okay.

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There’s nothing left for you here

What compassion and empathy I had for you is gone

You’ll never be in control of me again.

I never thought I’d feel this much hate

I never thought I’d want to say goodbye

More than in this moment

There’s so much anger inside of me

So much pain and hurt that you caused.

That you’ll never admit

You’re the reason for my hate.