My toxic relationship

still stuck on the same topic…

she took advantage of me when i was extremely sick

now i am in a relationship that is so toxic

to get out is non negotiable

the abuse is physical and emotional

she took my rights of being sociable

everyone thinks this situation is made up

i no longer want to see her when i wake up

begging let’s please just break up

this has gone so wrong

together we do not belong

as a couple we are far from strong

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but… she is my best friend

look at all the time together we spend

even the fights sometimes feel pretend

i hate the feeling of being controlled

however we made a promise, together we would grow old

her hand, i have to always hold

i am so scared of being alone

this is the only love i have ever known

i could never abandon her to live on her own

our relationship is just full of test and lessons

we have such a deep meaningful connection

together forever, me & depression