"Hide,"
She'd said.
And I did.
The space was dark,
unlike the night sky
it was dark with no stars
and where the night sky was
vast and endless,
my small space was a black box.
There were no stars here
that could paint the sea of black.
Only a slither of light
from beneath the door.
I could hardly count that to be a star.
I could hear their foot steps,
I could hear the mumbled voices
of their dispute yet again.
My hands were my ear muffs
and when this happened
I liked to pretend.
I pretended that I was away in a cave,
deep in the tundra
with my baby snow leopard, Snix.
I could see the shine of gems
that decorated the night sky
through a hole in the top of this cavern.
Or that I was in a hollow log
with my friend Foxface (yes, he was a fox).
Oh,
If I just peaked outside the hollow inning
I could the shimmer of jewels
that scattered the black canvas behind it.
When in reality it was all
a bad game of hide and seek.
No matter how hard I tried to pretend
I could never escape the door that opened and broke through my childish day dreams.
I could never escape
the images of my mother's purple bruises
and black eye and swollen lip.
I could never escape the slap
of his hand across my bum
and the stinger it left in me.
And for what?
What had I--a more child--had done wrong?
What had I done to make him loose his mind?
What had my mother done to deserve her scars?
Rattle. Rattle.
The door handle was jingling,
the shadow of footsteps danced
in the light of the door.
I sank deeper into my cave,
the snow littered rock giving me frostbite.
I could nearly feel Snix huddled close to me
so I cradled her for dear life.
I sank deeper into the hollow branch,
it's bark biting into my side
and I could hear Foxface growl, almost.
I could feel the light pierce my black box
before it even touched my skin.
Making all images and visualizations of my
sacred cave and my precious forrest
melt away.
My night sky was gone too.
Who was opening the door?
Was it my broken mother?
Or my monsterous father?
Who was it?
Snix had curled close to me and Foxface had growled...who could it be?
About the Creator
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"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” - Maya Angelou
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