My Letter to Mr. Darcy

Dearest Darcy,

Your terse words evoked

Anguish, longing, hope, warmth

I loved you alongside Caroline

I loved you before Lizzy

Why weren’t you mine?

I once pled:

“Glance at wallflower me

Dance with me

Gaze in my fine eyes

Violently declare your affection

Love me despite your pride”

Understand I was part

Loud Lydia

Moralizing Mary

Not enough Lizzy

Adore me anyway

Oh, austere Darcy,

I kept falling for you--

Gentlemen like you

But

None fell for me

None humbled themselves for me

I don’t blame you

Aloof, reserved soul

Yet at times I do

In my naivete

I wanted you

When I needed Bingley

His open affection

His reassurance

His embrace

So Mr. Darcy,

Go hike your breeches

Pull up your Hessian bootstraps

Loop your cravat

Whatever

I’m over you

I found my Bingley

Mrs. C. Davis

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Below I read my poem aloud and include pictures of gowns and moments with my Bingley.

To capture Darcy's or Bingley's attention, I altered, made, or bought various dresses over the years. Truly, I enjoy creating beauty as clothing or myself as a canvas.

My sister made this dress patterned after Eliza Doolittle's ball gown during her high school years. After she graduated, I beaded the top of the gown, shortened the length, and added the panel on the neckline (my sister is 7" taller than I am).

For Christmas my senior year of high school, my parents gifted me fabric and a pattern to make a medieval dress. I embroidered the dress with gold thread. I wore it to prom, for Halloween, and for playing dress-up. In the top left picture, I am a pregnant princess (the After Happily Ever After). In the middle left picture, my partner and I chacha the second and last round. In the bottom left picture, two neighborhood girls and I dressed up. On the right, my father-in-law captured a moment the night before my wedding and the moments after marrying in the Monticello, Utah temple.

I sewed lace on the pink ribbon to place on the neckline and around the waist. I made a ribbon headband using elastic underneath (same with the waistband). I glued ribbon flowers onto a fake pearl necklace and bobby pins. I bought the dress from Ross; the gloves from a local gown shop; and the necklace, bracelets, ribbons, etc from Walmart. Mr. Davis loves the outfit.