This shall be the last major battle of my life
It has been going on for nearly 17 years
My heart and my mind are at odds with each other
A loved one many years ago decided to end their relationship with me
For me that has been probably the most difficult thing I have had to face so far
My heart tells me, “Anshu, before you die, you will receive one last phone call from her.”
My mind retorts, “Anshu, don’t be an idiot! Any communication from her stopped so many years ago. You have not gotten anything so far - why will you get anything in the future?!!”
For me a good day is when this skirmish between both does not happen at all
Nearly every day I face this - sometimes for a few seconds, sometimes for more than an hour
The worst thing of all is that I did not get proper closure
Proper closure would have helped - I have several queries
I just feel it is not ever going to happen - I will live with this weight for my remaining years, however many they may be
Ideally, I wish my life was a book and I could rip that page years ago (the page that was the story between my loved one and me)
Alas, that is not the case
As I have done, I will keep doing so
I will live my life with happiness with my family and friends
As for the ongoing challenge I face, I will try my level best to minimize it as much as I can
Trust me, I will be very happy when this sorrowful memory will completely vanish from my thoughts
Please God, please help me - I need to completely let go of some things.
About the Creator
Anshuman Kumar
I live and work in Canada and am originally from India. I am interested in movies, short stories, swimming, travel etc. Tips are definitely optional but are very welcome. Thank you for reading.
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