My Four Mothers

auntie mars

I have four women in me

​A taurus, stubborn

​Words sharp, heart

​Warm and soft

​Yet is shielded by walls

​She built her boundaries as protection

​Yet lacks reflection

​Some of her bricks are outdated

​And her life is exactly how she made it

​So why does she sometimes feel like she hates it?

​The way it, altered and reconfigured her connection to her roots

​She sometimes forgets who she was, only to shine in what she is.

​auntie venus

​On the other side of venus, in love, in romance

​I absorbed her venusian power, her love of arts, music and dance

​She resemble the beauty and grace of the stubborn taurus

​However, she maneuvered the power of the woman

​The power of the goddess, queen

​Yet she does not know what no means

​Spoiled, they called her

​Yet she required an environment of nurture

​Sensitive, absorptive, gentle

A physical woman, a real down to earth girl

She sang as sweetly as a hummingbird

And she heard songs in her sleep

Lulling herself and her family into a dream

This fluttering butterfly was free,

A see you next lifetime

She made hearts skip a beat

Yet her downside, her defeat

Was loving luxury over the ability, the talent

to compete

Where was her belief?

auntie merc

Quick witted, never miss it

This girl skipped rocks over the world

A natural mathematician

She understands how systems work

Morally sound, the judge

The court, the woman good at every sport

Linear, direct

Yet lacking the standard to know what to expect

Fixing the fouls of those fools

Missing an opportunity to learn her tools

Everything there, but yearning here

She masked her desire with her ability

To acquire material

Born in the path of success

She sometimes bought more

To feel less

How could they forget her?

Did she cause this to happen by being too available

Yet never present?

mother earth

Mama, mother, life, earth

Grower, healer, yet lacking worth

I feel so much because of you

I am so much because of you

You were blind to the kind of power you possessed

Grow gardens from your fingertips

And nourish bodies from your hips

You connect to all that you encounter

And counter balance emulsified energies

Into flows of love and life

You gave me life and i forever thank you

You gave me strife and i can't stand you

I don't understand you, i pray you find clarity

Our resemblance is starting to scare me

I seen you feel pain deep within

And still rise to occasion

Your spirit is a phoenix

Brushing her wings through the ash

Grayed, covered, yet glimpses of glitter

In her eyes

I see why you cried

To make sure that you were still alive.

little rock

The mirror presents to me a new sight

it’s like

Overnight

I lost what i thought was me

Only to emerge, fluttering, buttery

Soaring into the sky of life

Soft, beautiful, candy for the sight

Deep blues and warmth of a summer night

​This woman, she sprung from which she fell

​To re enter in the winter of life

​I couldn't tell who she was, but i loved her life

​As i welcomed her ascension,

​I witnessed the fruits of her garden

​The seeds, i correct

​You could imagine the future of the fruits

​Palatable, you could already taste the love from her labor

​She is the beginning

​The living manifestation of all of these women

​Her four mothers

​Yet no one ever asked me who I wanted to be?